A letter to my little girl...

Dear Addie,

You've been with us for just over a year now.  I remember when I found out I was pregnant with you.  I was shocked and overwhelmed because you're brother was just 4 months old.  But I remember instantly loving you and worrying that you'd be ok in there for 9 months.  You kept me sick for nearly the entire time, but I'd do it all again for you.  I remember at my ultrasound, seeing your beautiful heart beating, and finding out you were a girl.  I started to cry.  I thought for sure you were a boy because girls only come to the White family every hundred years or so.  I was so happy to hear the news and I'm convinced that every Mama needs a baby girl.

I remember holding you for the first time.  Memorizing your face and looking at every detail of you.  You were a fussy baby and I remember crying with you often and wondering if you'd ever sleep again.  But looking back, it's crazy how fast it all goes by.

Addison, you are perfect to me.  You are so beautiful, inside and out.  I hope you always know and believe how beautiful you are.  You have a sweet personality and you made and smile and laugh everyday.

You're patient with your big brother, even when he's a little too rough with you.  You go with the flow and you're also patient with Dad and me when we don't get things quite right.  Everyone who meets you falls in love, and people tell me often how darling and sweet you are.

I remember thinking, "How will I handle two kids!?"  And now I can't remember, or imagine life without you.

I hope you know how much I love you.  Though, as I type this I think, you'll never really know how much I love you, until maybe when you have a child of your own, will you begin to understand.

Thank you for being my sweet baby girl.

Xoxo, Mom